As a second semester senior I’m in this weird middle area. I’m about to leave Ohio University and I feel like I just got here. You go to college and decide a major based on your interests, and what you see yourself doing for the rest of your life. Or at least that’s what people tell you to do. I chose journalism because I’ve always enjoyed writing. That being said, I have no idea what I want to do after graduation, and that freaks me the hell out.
Like most my age, I’ve been on this education track my entire life. You go to elementary school, then middle school, then high school, then college, and then you get a job. It’s such a strange thing to think about. You create a one page resume, not too long because people don’t have time to focus on you for that long, to convince someone to give you a chance. You apply to companies that you’ve dreamed of working at, only to get a friendly automated rejection letter. Did you do college wrong? Did you join the wrong clubs? Did you intern at the wrong places? Did you not intern at enough places? It’s enough to make your head spin, and it’s ONLY January!
Meanwhile, you only have one semester left with some of the best people you’ve ever met, and everyone is telling you to enjoy it because it flies by.
I need to remember that it’s all going to work out, and I will end up where I’m supposed to. I just wish I knew where that was going to be. Is it going to be a major city like Chicago, New York City, or Nashville? Or will I end up back home in Columbus, Ohio? Which isn’t necessarily a bad thing. I love that my family and friends would be there, and it’s a city I’m comfortable in. But isn’t this the time to be exploring new places while you have nothing “tying you down”? UGH.
At the end of the day I know I’m very fortunate to have this problem. I’m so grateful for the opportunities I’ve been given, I will graduate with a college degree and I have a wonderful family that will support whatever I decide to do next.I know a lot of people don’t have that same chance. I guess I just wish I knew what that “next” will be. I’ll keep you posted as soon as I find out.
For now I’m just going to channel my inner Carrie Underwood and let jesus take the wheel!